For those who just got to know the Changing Diapers, they don’t know how crazy, crazy even when they lived a tempting life. I was an anxious and doubting temptress and sometimes irresponsible with my insane actions. Funny how the life of a tentant imprisons us in such a way that we can’t even do, think or breathe in another environment that trying to have a baby is one of the most talked about subjects! I hoped for a friend to talk to me about pregnancy, so I could vent my anxieties and feel that I was not alone in this tempting journey .
I confess that the whys were around my head, as much as that of someone who is still in the life of a tempter. The battle and the wait for those who want to become pregnant can become a real torture for some women. But in the end I learned to turn that frustration into strength to continue training and countless attempts!
Any magic or miracles? No dear friends, I just learned that suffering in advance only makes walking and trying life worse. She had already suffered too much, and many girls can handle it. Countless times I gave up on becoming pregnant again. There were times when I couldn’t even hear about it and here for you I open my heart: I cried when a woman close to me said she was expecting a baby. I asked God if that was a punishment . What was I doing wrong that I couldn’t get pregnant?
The pain of knowing that other people were able to get pregnant and you were still waiting for your turn can be absurd, but for those who are in the life of a tentant, they know that it exists and is perfectly understandable. Who hasn’t caught up with a twinge of envy from the newest pregnant woman? I confess, there were countless times it happened to me. Although I was happy for this friend who just got her positive, but I’m human! We feel hurt, really hurt … But you know, that feeling goes away, trust me.
Temptant life is not easy
Although I did everything right, left the exams up to date, the positive never seemed to arrive. Time passed cruelly and quickly taking some of my hopes from the tentative life with him. The frustration and pain were such that I didn’t even look at the computer anymore, because it was there that most of my fertility controls were.
But I overcame it all and it was not easy, but I think that withstanding the negatives strengthened me in such a way that they did not affect me as much as initially. Before I tried to call myself negative in a row, I was bleeding. The wound was too deep but healed. However great the pain was that my time had not yet come. My time to generate a baby did not arrive, but the pain always passed , in one way or another, but it did. The pain turned to hope for a fresh start.
Waiting consumed me with each negative cycle and waiting became a routine for me. Knowing that there were more women in this situation helped me to overcome some of the anxiety that I had, but the tests were always present in my life. Amid so many frustrations I was comforted in dear friendsthat gave me support. It was going, going, going and it became natural, the anguish was no longer so great and then a beautiful day as if it were a magic trick the positive arrived! He arrived full of pain, cramps and uncertainty. It was my turn, I was expecting a baby! I’m sure many girls felt the way I did before, crazy to be in the other’s shoes. Out of respect for my tentative friends, I held on so much that my pregnancy didn’t seem like an affront to them, after all that was how I felt when I was still in the life of a tentative and another one showed up with her positive test.
But the tempter’s life was not just negative feelings! Despite the pain of waiting, it was great to meet people and make friends that last until today. It was through suffering that I discovered true friends who welcomed me as a member of the family and without everything I went through there would be no space that serves to help so many girls who have the same doubts that I had. Dealing with the pain of waiting is not always easy, but try to turn the frustration of a negative into an impulse so that new cycles happen with more hope. It is not always easy, but I understand perfectly. There is no magic or trick to get past this phase of the unscathed tempter, but there is faith and it must never leave the scene. I am happy to be able to help the tempting friends and know that they are not alone. Always count on me!
My name is Dr. Alexis Hart I am 38 years old, I am the mother of 3 beautiful children! Different ages, different phases 16 years, 12 years and 7 years. In love with motherhood since always, I found it difficult to make my dreams come true, and also some more after I was already a mother.
Since I imagined myself as a mother, in my thoughts everything seemed to be much easier and simpler than it really was, I expected to get pregnant as soon as I wished, but it wasn’t that simple. The first pregnancy was smooth, but my daughter’s birth was very troubled. Joana was born in 2002 with a weight of 2930kg and 45cm, from a very peaceful cesarean delivery but she had already been born with congenital pneumonia due to a broken bag not treated with antibiotics even before delivery.